What Would You Do?

Sometimes in life we make decisions based off of what we know with out really knowing the whole true, I know I sure have. But other times we base our decisions on how much we care about other people. For me as you know I would do anything for anyone I care about. A lot of times I make decisions that other people are unwilling to make(because they are afraid of what would happen after they make those decisions).

But I took a leap and this one eventually paid off how I was hoping it would. But as I said I don't do stuff for me, I do it for other people. Would you risk your friendship so that way your friend could get closer to other people and be happier even if that meant that you would be out of the picture? Well I did, if they are a true friend then they won't understand why you did it but they will forgive you eventually, and you will gain back that trust over time. I truly can't ever explain why I did it but for me to be happy isn't important but for them to be happy is important not only for them but for me.

Being a teen is hard for anyone, weather its growingup, dealing with changes, dealing with social issues, its all difficult but when you throw autism into the mix it makes it 10 times worse...

Realising we make Mistakes.

As we grow older we begin to realize the mistakes that we have done and the things that we should have done instead. A lot of us are able to forgive other people for the mistakes that they have done, and sometimes they can't. I don't have that problem of not forgiving other people, instead when I make a mistake and realize what I have done I am usually unable to forgive myself for the things I did or the things that I have done. No matter what though we are the only ones that have to live with those mistakes. As we grow up we change and we realize that what we did in the past was wrong and a lot of us will try and make it right. If we don't try then our conscience will make us feel horrible for a long time. But we all have to learn how to forgive ourselves sometime in our lives. We can lose a lot from mistakes weather its friends, family, coworkers, and even ourselves, people can die from making mistakes, but no one can prevent them from actually happening...unless you think before you act and make the right decisions. But sometimes doing the right thing isn't always doing the right thing...

Summer Vacation

Man this summer has flown by. Last summer was a long summer except for on a couple days, One of those days was when I went to the Mall with My Bestest friend. I planned out that whole day we were just going to relax, talk to each other and hang out at the mall for 4 hours. We met at the mall and I thought that we were going to relax and have a great time keeping eachother company but then I thought about seeing WallE. I asked her If she wanted to see it and she said yes so I treated both of us to that movie. Let me tell you though I'm glad I saw that movie with her rather then seeing it with anyone else. I guess it was small priceless moments like that, that always bring me back to the harsh reality of life and how it always changes year to year. But for the rest of that time we just went from store to store just fooling around and having a great time. The time flew by and before we knew it our time was almost up so we decided to have some last minute fun and take pictures together and make a movie by the curtains in JCPenny. But after that sadly our time was up. And it was time for her to go home, and for me to head back up to VT. If I only had 1 selfish wish then I would wish that I could do that day all over again because it meant so much to me. Its time Like those that let us know that people do care about us more then we think they do. Back then I would trust my life in her hands, and right now I still would.

But like I said every summer Is different and this summer I doubt I'll see her because of what happened last year. She still holds that against me and right now I don't blame her(I know I might do the same if I was her). But this summer I ended up climbing the Eiffel Tower, climbing up on top of the Arc De Triumph, Going to the Louvre as well as going to a 5 star resteraunt, Going to Luxembourg, And going to Brussels Belgium(and Grabing some Belgium chocolate). But anyway I'm tired and I'll write more on tomorrow.

Family and Friends

As I grow older I come to realize how cruel life really is. When I was a young child I never knew how life really was because of my parents would sheild me from the bad things in life and I never had to worry about the truth in people and what they are capable of doing. Now I am over in England to see family and to relax on vacation, and I soon am going to be going to France and Belgium. But now I know the true colors of some of my relatives because they would rather go to Weymouth then see their family(us) who only comes over once every 3-6 years. I guess every body has their different priorities but its hard for me to understand why they would rather go to the beach then spend time with us. Here in England my dad is like the connecting link to his family, but the family has drifted apart over the years of us coming over. Every time I use to come over I would usually see one of my favorite cousins but she has grown up and I haven't seen or talked to her in 6=7 years and its really a sad thing for me, because friends and family is everything to me(As you know, if it wasn't for them then I would have no reason to keep living). But the main point of this post is that this year Friends and Family have drifted apart and its a hard thing for me to adapt to these changes. And I guess whether I learn to adapt to them or not life is going to go on.

This year has been a tough year for me all around and yet I'm still going through all of it. Its these hard times when we begin to realize how lucky we are and were in the past. But its vacation and I'm loving it and I refuse to let anyone ruin it no matter who they are. Right now I'm probally the happiest I've been all year because I know no matter what happens that I'm going to be ok, And if I do get stuck in a rut then I know that my Friends and Family will help me when I need it the most. But any way I gotta go enjoy the rest of my vacation and I'll write more when I get back home.