Goodbyes and Fear

Goodbyes are the hardest thing for me to do. The only times someone will get me to say Goodbye is ether if I'm letting them go, or if they are dying and I know that I probally will never see them again. I guess the reasoning behind this is because of the fear that I get of ether them forgetting everything that we did together or that I may never see them again. Sometimes I can't even say Goodbye to people that I care about most just because it is too hard. But when I can't say goodbye in person I try saying everything on a note. Some people think that this is just to see them cry, but in reality I really cant stand having to say goodbye to them and having to live without them in my life, or else I get all depressed(for many reasons). Some will understand this and others won't, but ether way I'm telling people what they wanted to know.

Fear is a weird thing because a lot of people are afraid of things like getting bitten, getting stung, falling, getting sick, and even dying. But sometimes in order to avoid the things we fear we tend to miss out on great things, and great memories that we could of had. I don't know, but I think that getting or learning how to put up with our fears is part of growing up.