My Brain.

My brain is like a giant puzzle. People that want to see the final picture have to come and work together with one another..... Every single second of every single minute of every hour of every day of every week or every month of every year, my brain is always thinking/worrying/feeling/observing/// and its just plain hard living like this. (basically its like having your computer on and browsing the web/looking for music/playing games/ doing taxes/ editing photos/and creating programs all at the same time for 8 years straight so that it overheats and eventually blows up or melts down because it cant handle everything.)

I once was sitting in the back seat of my moms car, and I was telling someone that its your brain that makes you who you are, but then they started telling me that I was wrong because it is your soul that makes you who you are. At first I didn't believe them at first but after that argument I found out that she was right.

People are really smarter then they think they are, some of them have abilities that cannot be explained or proved and yet they still have them. Some see the future, some can sense something is going to happen before it does happen and others like me can tell when someone they care about or love is in trouble or in danger. Most people want to argue and say that everyone who says they can do stuff like this is flat out lying, chances are that I would agree with them if I hadn't seen it for myself. Some people say that having these "special abbilities" is a honor or those people are lucky that they can do such stuff. Me personally I think it is more of a curse.

A lot of people always wonder why I'm pissed off at life and chances are that it has something to do with the stuff that could have happened but didn't, or stuff that is happening as we get older like growing apart, but I guess thats life. When I was little I always use to say that "life's a bitch" even though most of the time it is, or feels like it is. Good stuff doesn't always happen to me every week, its more like once every year or so(a good example would be me going over to a friends house or hanging out with them). So after a wile I start to feel IDK lonely, and I start thinking maybe this is what god has in plan for me for my whole life. Good times are great when they come, but they never last long....... :'( :'( and they dont come verry often.....

Everyday from now on(except vacations when I'm not here) im going to write something on this blog so I'll try and keep you up dated.