WOW this whole week has been hectic.

WOW this whole week has been hectic. for the last 3 nights I've been staying up till 11:30 doing HW. And on top of all that grades close tomorrow so I've had no free time what so ever.

So anyway tomorrow is the day where both my past and my future meet(long story short, I got out of my old school system because I had no friends and academics every week just plain sucked. but tomorrow I'm going to meet some of the people that I left 3 years ago.)

About a week ago I had this really really freaky dream, Where it was like I saw somebody doing something even though I wasn't there. About a 2 days ago I asked somebody else if that really did happen the same way I saw it happen in my dream and they said yes it did. That same night right before I went to bed I asked my mom what I should do and she said that I shouldn't worry about it... But I'm really really freaked out because this is like the 8th time it has happened with in the last 2 years. Last year I dreamed of my cousin being the the hospital because his heart was failing on him, I told my mom that something was wrong with my cousin and she said no he's fine..... about 2 days later my mom came up to me and told me that I was 100% right and my cousin was on the line of dying, luckily he made a full recovery even though it took him over a year to recover. On January 8th of this year I dreamed my great grandma was dying, the day after I went to my best friend (at lunch) and I asked him what would you do if you knew that your (great) grandmother was dying, he said that I should go up and see her...... I wish I listened to him about a 6 days later my great grandmother died(when I found out I cried for 3 hours straight). I've even had people be offended by what I saw in my dream, Because they say that their life is none of my business, But if I dream about something that really did/does happen then it is my business(those people are still pissed at me for that) because I really wanna know if it really happened. Imagine if you could see the future in your dreams but you cant do a darn thing to prevent it from happening. This is not lucky that I have it, Its Basically a curse.(No I'm not trying to play god)

These past few weeks have been hell for me. My life is literally falling apart. My friends keep getting farther and farther away(metaphorically speaking). But maybe the mistake was getting so close to begin with, who knows. But as we all get older things/people/and life change. But are some of the changes worth really happening if in the end you get in trouble and because of those changes you have nobody that you knew you could trust that can help you get back up? In the end though we all have to learn from our mistakes(I've made my fair share of them)...

Some times no matter how much you want to keep the thing that matters to you close to you, sometimes you just have to let it go. Even if it means that you get hurt(emotionally), it's what is best for it, and it's what will make it happy.